Longing for Jesus

It's on my heart more and more...
Craving, hungering, thirsting after what is righteous.

There is so much evil in this world, spiritual darkness, wickedness lurking . . .
It sickens me, saddens me, breaks my heart.
Because what I'm learning is the more I align my thoughts with the Word of God, and the more He works in me, the more sensitive I become to what is not like Him.
Granny called it "higher heights and deeper depths. . . going deeper in the Lord." (We understand that as sanctification.)

I am not perfect, of course I stumble, but by His grace, I want to please the Lord, to obey what He commands, to live where others want this, too.

And I ache for a place:
Where I can raise my family and the love of Christ is abundant
Where we're not odd because we whispered prayers of gratitude before a meal
Where the commands of God are reflected in the laws of man
Where I'm not ridiculed for Biblically submitting to my own husband, or for having all these kids, or for staying at home to keep my house
Where I see people actually loving each other as themselves
Where I am readily encouraged by my neighbors to wholly follow the Lord
Where I can live in community with other believers, worshiping together, witnessing together, sharing life with each other, helping each other
Where that older woman is lavishing her wisdom on the next generation of wives
Where younger women humble themselves and take heed to that wisdom
Where men are men, not slacking in their duties of prayer, provision and protection, honorable and strong. . .
Where is that place? Where are those people?

And, as I mull these things over with my husband, as our hearts rage and grieve over a sin-sick world, as we discuss the future--how to raise up these children of ours for the cause of Christ--the Holy Spirit whispers: it's Me, it's Me.

I realize it's not just about finding like-minded mamas for lunch and play dates, it's less about twisted laws that promote and celebrate sin, it's not really a little protected community where all is well. . . It's Jesus that my soul wants. I'm longing for Him.

The reality is, there is nothing that this world can offer me that will soothe my achy sorrow, or fulfill this deep, deep need for true Life and real Love. It's Jesus. That's Who I'm longing for.

I understand now why my Granny used to sing, "This world is not my home, I'm just a stranger, I'm passing through. . ." I didn't get it as a little girl, but now? I feel like I'm yelling at every turn: "Oh, just give me Jesus!"

Or, in the words of John:
". . . Even so, come, Lord Jesus!" (Revelation 22:20)


  1. Stacie-
    Thanks for sharing your heart. I have the same aches. I am grateful that He comforts me as the world swirls around.

    1. One day we will ache no more. . .I'm glad God grants us peace in the meantime.

  2. Amen. So well spoken and so true. Yes, we are strangers and pilgrims in this world. We're only passing through. If it was a perfect world, we'd never long for living in His perfect world. Thanks for sharing.

    1. You're right, Jen. That perspective is key.

  3. How can you know for sure your forgiven? What do I need to do to be sure that if I died tonight I will go to heaven?


    1. Hi, Ann. I'm glad you stopped by!
      If you believe in Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins and ask Him to be the Lord and Ruler of your life, you are saved. You would need to believe that He is the Son of the living God, that He came to this world to offer Himself for us through death on a cross, that He was crucified and died, but was raised to Life on the 3rd day, and that He has the power to forgive.

      Here are some Scriptures that reassure us:
      1John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
      Romans 10:9-10 "that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."
      Ephesians 2:8 "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God. . ."

      Ann, I hope this helps you and if you have more questions, please feel free to contact me. God bless you!

    2. My husband says one word sums it up: Faith. :)

  4. Amen, my sister... It's Him we're longing for...
    We have no city, but we're seeking the city to come, where He will reign forever...

  5. I think that that is an ache that we all have felt from time to time. I suppose God allows us those times so that He can remind us that it's truly Jesus who satisfies.
    Lovely post, thank you for sharing. Happy to be visiting you from the Titus 2sdays linkup this evening. ~ blessings ~

    1. You're right, Brenda...only He can satisfy. Thanks for stopping by.


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